Love and Lilacs

When I smell lilac blossoms, I am fourteen again and lying in tall sweet grass with my boyfriend. His hair is blonde and curly, and when he smiles, which is often, his blue eyes turn into twin crescents. There are summer cottages just a few yards away, and people moving back into them, but we are tucked behind a tall hedge and no one can see us. We kiss one long last time before getting to our feet and then, laughing, we brush the grass off each others’ back. At the end of my street he pulls me close and kisses me again—this boy loves to kiss—and then he turns and starts walking down the dirt path along the railroad tracks. I do not take my eyes off him. Twice, maybe three times, he turns and waves, and though I can’t see his face, I know he is smiling.

Back east, where I grew up, lilacs grow like weeds. Each spring their branch tips burst into bunches of light lavender flowers that droop and nod in the breeze. On warm days, you live in their perfume. Tender and persuasive, the scent is like no other. There were roses in my youth, big dew-covered blooms lolling over white fences, but smelling them now does not take me back in time. Roses are not lilacs.

We were fourteen and in love. While I appreciate nature now, back then it was clemency, a place to disappear, and this boy and I were as much a part of it as the plants we hid among, all of us getting the same sun and rain.

I have not seen him in ages. Occasionally we write letters, share news of our families and jobs. He is the father of three, married to the same woman all these years. I am certain he is a good husband because I knew him as a boy, in ways that no one else did. His wife has him now, but his youth belongs to me.

Lilacs are not native to California—I bought the one I have. It’s in a pot in my backyard, and this year, as if making up for last, it gave me an extravagance of blooms.

I’ll be gone for the next two weeks.

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Opening Day of SURVIVAL SKILLS

Today is a big day for me: the official release of SURVIVAL SKILLS!

For those interested in stories involving animals and the natural world, I think you’ll enjoy this collection, particularly if you enjoy this blog. For a sample, please download the opening story, “Greyhound.”

http://www.ashlandcreekpress.com/download/SurvivalSkills_Excerpt.pdf

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Wishing you all a happy spring.